Wow !!!

Wow what a great weekend. Duane and I had a great time shopping and relaxing oh did I mention shopping? We really enjoyed walking around and checking out shops and looking at antiques. We just chilled and enjoyed time away from phones and work and computers. Duane did treat me to a great gift while we were there.. a pair of diamond hoop earrings.. Last time we were there he bought me a diamond necklace for our 20th. He is so funny to shop with when we start looking he always says ok I know what I like now you tell me what you like.. we are usually pretty close on our choices. I feel so lucky to have him in my life and still after 25 years we have fun together and enjoy being with each other.

Work is going great getting into the hang of things and really enjoying the people. Now that I really have the hang of things it is not as stressful for me.. I still feel so fortunate to have found this job and how blessed at how I found it.. God truly had a plan and I just followed his orders this time. I have learned a lesson and that is "HE will take care of you" we just have to listen and be Patient. I know that is not my best quality but I am working on it...

Oh on the weight front I was down 1 lb this Saturday and moving right along.. Michelle my weigh in buddy lost too as well as Heather.. speaking of Heather... she had a BIG suprise on Friday... she found out she was pregnant right after she went to dr to be put on birth control... now you know me I love babies so yea Heather.. plus she makes great kids so I can't complain.. So Congrats Heather.. Oh and speaking of babies...Nicole had a little girl on Friday... Babies Babies I love babies... Cant wait to see baby Lucy... Congrats to the Hoen's ....

Jenna is coming home this weekend !!!! Yippee!!! Tomorrow nite is my first nite meeting with the girls for our Bible Group... This week is off and running and so am I..... Byeeeeee

Things on my mind

What is on my mind is this: I am feeling very content with everything. I am happy at my new job. I am pleased with myself and how things are going at work. I am proud of Duane and I for being married 25 years. I am looking foward to spending the weekend with Duane at a BB in Red Wing. I am missing the kids at daycare and missing Rae too.. I am excited to get back into hockey season. I love fall. I am done... thanks for listening..

You've Got a Friend

Today was weigh in day and I was down 2lbs! I have officially lost 48lbs and am 9 lbs away from my goal weight. I was kind of curious how I would do this week with all the new things happening ie. job, doctor visits and my pregnancy scare (LOL) but all went well. Two of my friends Heather and Michelle are doing weight watchers too and are doing great... Michelle and I go to meetings together and try to touch base during the week to keep each others frame of mind in line and Heather is doing WW online and is kicking BIG butt.. she is down 32lbs and even though I dont get to see her every day like I used to I try and talk with her during the week.. I really do miss chatting with her everyday and seeing Sami's big smile and her great smooches.. but Heather has been great stopping by or getting together so I can have some Sami LOVE... Most of all I miss seeing Rae everyday and talking we have such a close and great friendship that was unique in us being able to work together in a laid back setting it is hard not to have that "girl" time with her like we had.. but we try and talk thru the week and I try and pop in once a week to see her and the kids... I do have to say she was the first friend I called after I got the call from the dr about the pregnancy test... she really had a great laugh and so did I. Of course Michelle and Heathe were not far behind... oh well glad I could give them a laugh even if I was the brunt of it.. Again, I have to say how blessed I feel to have such great friends and not just friends but "Girl Friends" you know those friends that you know that you can call on for a good laugh or a shoulder to cry on , friends to just hang with , friends for support ... I hope that they all know that I feel so lucky to have them as friends and I hope they feel the same of me. You know that song " You've Got a Friend" ?? Winter Spring Summer or Fall all you have to do is call.. and I'll be there......... You've Got a Friend.....

A FUNNY thing Happened today

Ok so today at the end of my lunch I got a phone call from my dr. she wanted to let me know that the biopsy came back.. she started out saying everything came back great , no cancer no abnormal cells .... BUT... there was something that the pathologist saw that questioned if I was .... are you ready??? PREGNANT.... she explained to him that Duane had a vasectomy and that she was pretty sure that I wasnt but he insisted that I have a pregnancy test... OH MY GOD!!!!! so she ordered a test .. so in the mean time I call Duane... he thought I was kidding me like a joke.. I had to swear to him that I was joking.. now you all know me and my sense of humor and thank God I have it because it would have made me fall over from a heart attack ... I was pretty sure that I couldnt get pregnant but you always just wonder .. and with all that has been going on I had a bit of question.. I thought well maybe a tubal pregnancy... so this lasted for 4.5 hours and found out guess ??? NOT ..so God has a sense of humor too.... so with that my day is over and I am not pregnant and all is good....Till next time...

Uncertainty/Certainty

Well I am uncertain about what is going on with my physical body but am working at finding out what is going on.. went to dr today for biopsy and that will be back in a week or so but she recomended that I see a gynocolgist so I have appt for tomorrow. I am not sure what they will say or do but I really just want to know what is going on.. I am sure I will know more tomorrow. As for the CERTAINTY I know I really LOVE my job and I felt confident being on my own at work today.. I really felt that I knew what I was doing and that I was doing a decent job. So with that I am going to kick up my feet and relax tonite and hope I feel decent tomorrow . I have to say I am TIRED of the "female" stuff .... but this to will pass..

Finding Balance

This past week I really feel that I am finding balance. Balance in eating healthy ... Balance with family and friends...The best balance is being able to work at a job that really challenges me and that I like and then being able to work with the kids at church.. I really feel like God had a plan and without hesitation I followed it and I am happy.. I am happier now than I have been in a long time and I believe it is all God's work.. that saying "let go and let God" I feel I am a great example of how God works and if we follow with no doubts or question and just let go it is amazing how easy life really can be.. I just know that the past 6 months have been life changing and I give all the credit to God he truly works in mysterious ways...

I am down 1.2 lbs this week 3 lbs last week so that makes my total at 46 lbs so far. I have about 11 to go to make my goal.. I am in a size 12 which is incredible . I went and bought clothes for my new job since I only had jeans and sweats for daycare it was sooo fun .... what was crazy was that I had soo much to choose from it was hard to put things back.. so my journey is still challenging and I am still learning so much about myself I just keep on keeping on and enjoy the ride.... kinda like this journey..

New Job Update

I wanted to check in and share how my first few days at new job went. I really really like it... Lots to learn and since I really havent used my brain for the past few years it is taking a bit to sink in but it is... the girl that is training me in said I am doing good. I just dont answer phones I take care of all the service tickets from the service center.. run the check or credit card thru. etc.. filing and closing out at the end of the day.. I have met Nancy who works the evening shift and she seems very nice and very open to helping me when I go solo on Monday... that makes me feel a bit better.. I have orientation on Monday so after that I will be solo... everyone is very nice and helpful.. I feel that I have made the right decision and feel really good about it... will keep learning and feeling more confident.

As for my health my dr called yesterday and wants me to come in and get a biopsy to make sure there isnt more going on in my uterus and ovaries.. I feel better but still have some discomfort and feel it is better to make sure all is well.. they also will want to do another ultra sound in a few months.. I am not concerned about the biopsy I think I may have some cysts that may have to be watched but will have to wait and see. so keep me in your prayers.... thanks to all for their support and help getting back on the right road of my journey.... I really feel I am in control and feeling great about everything... Life is Good!!!!

Great News!!!

I am NOT unemployed anymore!!!!! I got the call / text today that I had the receptionist position at Denny Hecker's Dodge dealership. I am so excited. This job really just dropped into my lap and I feel so very lucky.. It is 2 minutes from my house, I know at least 3 people that work there and the hours are awesome.. 7 to 3 ... I feel so blessed to have gotten this job.. it was purely by referral and the people that referred me are all Rachel's relatives.. I feel like I am a part of the family... and what is great is I still get to see and remain good friends with everyone.. woohooo.. So here is the the shocker I start tomorrow at noon... so I will let you know how things go but I know it will be great I am pumped!!!!

What are you wired for?

I am so grateful for so many things in my life one is friends... I have recently become friends with someone thru Meadow her name is Michelle. I truly never thought that we would be friends.. 1. she is a young mom of 4 girls... 2. she is a school teacher 3. really never thought we had anything in common. I have to say the more I get to know her the more I just plain LOVE her she has a great personality and is so caring and easy to talk to.. She has joined Weight Watchers and we share that journey.. we are doing the small group "Becoming" for girls together, and best of all we just get each other..Yesterday at weigh in it was great she lost over 4lbs and I lost 3lbs you should have heard us we were a bit excited... I know that when Michelle asks if their is anything she can do (like when I was in ER last nite) she really means it. I just feel blessed to have found her and that she considers me her friend.

I am grateful for Heather she is another great friend and so much fun... we went shopping together and she was great.. she is my official personal shopper from now on.. most of all she is Sami's mommy and I LOVE SAMI!!!!!! Sami I think loves me too .....She too is someone that I would have never thought to be a close friend... 1. she is younger 2. she is a young mom 3. she is a very self assured young woman. but we are good friends and I feel so lucky to be her friend. I know I can rely on her for help and support anytime.. as a matter of fact she may be the one that is responsible in getting me a job... we also, share Weight Watchers and that struggle.

Rachel is one of my oldest good friends and we share so much together and we continue to grow in our friendship.. I know that she will always be a great friend... but again when I first met Rae she wasnt a mom but newly married, my boss, very career like woman but after she left Kindercare she made a phone call to me as a friend to tell me she was quitting and as a "friend" she wanted to give me a heads up.. that was the beginning of our friendship... now she is a mom of 3!!!! , pastor of Childrens Ministry and runs a in home daycare... she hired me to work with her , she invited me to Meadow and is the one who is responsible for the friends I have in my life.. Before I started working for her she said... ya know Linda God has you wired to do something and you have to stop and listen to him to find out what that is....I am so grateful for that statement because I did listen and God brought me to all of this and all of these great women in my life....now I am wondering what he has planned for me now...??? I think I know the answer but I am not going to share and see if I am right.... I am just so thankful for all of them.. After writing this I have discovered a common factor in all of these women... they are strong Christian moms..... God has blessed me....

Hands on the Wheel

Well what started as a shocking week has finally sunk in.. I have been busy sending out resumes applying for jobs .. I have had 2 interviews .. 1 for a nanny of twins.. 1 for receptionist job.. I also have a lead on a great prospect and have to wait to hear back on that.. It would be a great job.. close to my house, great hours and I know someone that works there... it came to me kinda like a trickle down affect... i sent my resume to someone to pass along to someone at the same time the 2nd someone had received a email from a family member stating there was a position open and if they knew anyone to pass it along.. it then got passes back to someone who then passed it to me.. and the beauty of this is I know everyone of those someones... hmmm wonder if networking works?? LOL...
The nanny job is a promising prospect as well but with this other prospect I am really thinking that it may be the time to move away from kids... I love it but I also think I am at a time in my life where a REAL job may be good.. I have grown so much in the past months. I also still want to try and work at Weight Watchers when and if the time comes.... I have been doing alot of volunteering for church and I love it.. I am doing alot of different things that are continuing to help me grow each day.. so the journey of my life has taken a turn but I have or feel I have a bit of control over it... I will let you know if and when I get back on the main road when it comes to working.. I feel so blessed to have such great close friends that are helping me find a job and giving me the confidence I need to step out of the box.

As for as the weight loss I was the same last week.. no big deal.. i have been having some wierd periods lately and I am sure that has alot to do with it... I am having a ultrasound tomorrow to check things out... sure it is no big deal but better to have it checked... i figure since I am turning 47 on Saturday it is just old age... so with all of that babbling I am checking out... say a prayer that I get the right offer and make the right decision when the time comes...

All Good Things Come to a End

Well today started off normal up and off to work.. I was even thinking as I was getting lower level ready for daycare well it is a new month and hopefully Tim (Rachels' husband) will hear from the company that he interviewed with and he will be offered a job... it has been really difficult for them and getting harder with him without a job since January.. so I have been praying that he finds something. Anyway, within a few minutes Rae came down to fill me in on the day and then had to share some bad news ... she has to let me go... I really became numb.. I know it was hard for her to tell me because it is not a normal working relationship.. I really understand and would have made the same decision but hearing it is still hard.. I have really been blessed to work with her. We have become very close along with her cousin Heather.. I am going to miss that the most... of course I will see them but it wont be the same.. I am going to miss seeing the little ones grow and develop into different stages.. Also, it was hard to share this news with Duane because my main purpose is to work to put money into college fund for Nick... he was not as upset as I thought and said well, you always seem to fall into something pretty fast.. which I said yea I already have a lead ... now this lead is a bit scary but I think it may be something that I can do... I am waiting for a phone call and when I know more I will share... but until then I am off and running to find something that will fit for me..
Now when Nick came home I told him and he was like wow mom what the hell? I explained Tim and Rae's situation and then made it a learning situation.. I said you know the economy is bad and when it affects one person it slowly trickles down and affects others... that is what happend here... times are bad and people are struggling. He has to know and does know that I work to help both kids with college and that I am limited to what I can do. I want them to know that both Duane and I work so that they can have more than we did.. I do believe they understand but it doesnt hurt to put it on the table every once in awhile... so my journey has taken a veer toward uncertaintiy and I will work thru but damn I hate when my bubble gets popped.. Till next time...