Remember When

I am dating myself but lately because of the poor economy it has come to mind and I want all the young parents out there to think about this when celebrating Christmas this year.

When I grew up Christmas was so BIG something that you anticipated for months. Why? Well, I can clearly remember asking for a robe, boots , new jeans etc in September or October and the answer was... Put it on your Christmas list.. you see when I was growing up we just didnt go out and get what we thought we needed or wanted and believe it or not we survived. I truly believe that is why Christmas has become what it is these days.. the magic is gone. I heard that when adults are asked what memories they have of the Christmas past it is NOT a specific gift it was the tradition. For me.. Christmas Eve and getting ready for everyone coming over and Elvis blaring on the stereo. Counting the minutes when the house was packed with family and friends.. Not when can we open presents... I dont think we opened gifts and if we did I dont remember.. I remember being allowed to leave the tree lights on all nite and laying in bed watching the lites and thinking how special that was. I remember waking in the morning and having my stocking stuffed with fruit and nuts... I DONT remember the specific gifts I remember the celebration. I want to thank my parents for those memories... As I got older and was blessed to become a member of the Feldmeier family I then saw the magic that their family celebrated Christmas.. It was magic. NO ONE saw Grama Rosie's tree until Christmas Eve and we all gathered on the porch with the little ones and all came in together with a lit tree... The look on the kids faces said it all... I know from my kids that is what they remember.. They dont remember the gifts that were under the tree but the excitement of seeing Grama's tree that Santa brought. The cookies, candies and all the cousins and their excitement. So this year when we all are stressing about not being able to afford gifts for everyone start a new tradition. Remember it is not what you give or get it is celebrating Jesus's birthday and being with family and friends.. So all parents stop and remember your special Christmas and bring back the Magic.

Again,,,,

Again all good things must come to a end... last nite I found out that the dealership that I work at closed their doors. I am without a job along with 400 other employees of Denny Hecker.. this was not a total shock but when it happens it is a SHOCK. I will be fine and I pray that all the other employees that are going thru the same thing do ok.. what is so difficult is there was no closure. I left work on Friday and really did not have the opportunity to say a real goodbye to people that I have become friends with. That is what is hard... That was what I went to bed with last nite and then woke up to finding out that a little girl that I knew died from a brain tumor last nite. This child has suffered in the past months and I know she is pain free and dancing and singing with Jesus today.. I pray for her family and give them strength during this time. They tried everything and gave it all for Ella and I hope they have comfort in that. Please, keep them in them in your prayers.

On a UP BEAT I went to weigh in this morning and was down over 3 lbs I am now 1 lb away from WW goal. This means I will be able to work for WW's and will be investigating it. I think I am going to take some time off and fully heal and enjoy the holidays. Till next time...

Back to work

Well back to work today and I have to say it wore me out... I did fine but by the end of the day I was ready to go home and relax.. of course that is easier said than done.. lots of laundry to do so I am going to relax in between loads.. as they say no rest for the wicked. Each day I am sure will get better and will be back to myself in no time. I have to say I have maintained my weight since all of this... I didnt weigh in last Saturday so I will get a idea how things are going on Saturday morning. I dont feel like I have gained and really have tried to stick to the program as best as I could. I am not stressing about it and that is the best thing I will find out on Saturday. To all that are on the program just remember we have to take one day at a time and if things go bad one day or one meal just start right back on the program .... We can do it...

Good Stream

I had surgery again on Friday and I have to say I went into it thinking no big deal. When I was in recovery I soon discovered that was NOT true.. I was in alot of pain... I was suprised not really sure why though.. I got home and had some icecream and went to bed.. I slept fairly well. Saturday I slept ALOT and really just chilled.. I am really tired and sore I guess 2 surgeries in 3 weeks wipes one out.. Same is true today I slept 11 hours last nite got up went to church came home and slept for 3 hours.. I am not going to work tomorrow and I am glad I took the nurses advice and took Monday off. I was going to go back to work on Monday but she suggested that I take the day off and I am glad I did... I am cramping alot and really sore and moving slow... The good thing is that I am peeing way better.. I am not having to use the catheter which is great... Hopefully, I will feel way better and be back to my old self soon... Well, I am off to snuggle up in my bed and chill for the nite..

A Bit of a Set Back

I had to go in for a check today with the doctor/surgeon and after talking with me about how things are working (bladder) she decided that she needs to go back in and adjust the sling. So back to surgery on Friday. So.. back to hospital on Friday afternoon for a quick nip and tuck.. This wont be as invasive as the last one but like any surgery it will slow me down for a few days.. I may need to take off on Monday but will wait and see. Besides that she said I was healing really well. A bit of a set back but not too far... soo that is what it is...

Update

I went to weigh in today after 2 weeks of not weighing in and meeting my goal weight..I stayed the same I maintined my weight these past 2 weeks. I have been unable to work out as I have been and really have not been too active so I was a bit nervous about weighing in today but it was good. It really helped me to know that I have really gotten it the program and I feel good about it ... not that this is the end as I have said before this is not the end of my journey but the beginning... which is why I feel like I have finally figured it out... one day at a time one week at a time.... little bitty steps...

First Day Back

Well I made it all day at work and it really was not bad at all. My back bothered me in the afternoon but beside that I was fine. It was really good to be back and doing something.. It didnt hurt that the weather is soooo gorgeous here so I took Rudy for a walk before dinner and that felt good. The doctor told me to walk walk and walk and I will be getting back to more of the treadmill next week along with some weight training.. I have a call into the doctor to verify what I can and can not do... I really miss working out it makes me feel so much better but I know I have to take it slow.... Easy does it as my mother n law would say... Jenna is heading home this Wednesday nite for the weekend and she has given me orders that she will clean the house for me so that will take me for a good 2 weeks and then I will get the boys to help me the next time. I want to thank all for the calls and emails while I was recooperating. I will keep you updated on how I am doing and how the maintenace on my weight is going...

Off the Subject

The other day Duane and I stopped by the pet shop to get Rudy his bones I got the usual amount of 6 and went to pay for them Duane was standing there and when they told me the total he looked at me and said are they per pound? Now the total was 32.00 I said No their 4.99 each that is why I am always hollering at Floyd not to get them.. we left the store and all he could talk about was 32 for fucking bones for a dog are you crazy??? I kept telling him that they last a long time for Rudy as long as Floyd dont get them... that did not appease him.. every time he sees a bone he has to make a BIG Statement... so I guess I need to shop around for different bones... I figure yea they may be pricey but Rudy doesnt chew up furniture or anything else so in the long run we are saving money.. he still doesnt agreee............ hmmm what do you think?

Nervous

I have to say I am a bit nervous going into the maintenance phase of my weight loss. Mainly because of the limitations I have on exercise for the next few months. I am able to do the treadmill and do weights for my upper body. It certainly will not be the workouts that I have mbeen doing... I did not go and weigh in this week so that is weighing heavy on my mind also. Maybe I have too much time on my hands and once I get back to work I will feel more in control. I did take a short walk yesterday and didnt feel too bad afterwards I also was up and moving all day yesterday and did fine. I am nervous about going back to work (not being able to do it) but going to the bathroom and all.. you see it is a bit difficult to get the bladder going and empyting completely so it takes a bit for the whole process. After I go to the bathroom on my own I have to use a catheter to finish to empty my bladder, which is no big deal at home but may be a bit daunting out in a public bathroom. Well, all I can do is give it a whirl tomorrow and see how it goes. I am excited about getting back to work and being around people and doing things. Well, I guess I will do the best I can and see how it goes... I will report in and let all know how it goes... till tomorrow..