I AM DOWN!!!!!

Quick update on my weigh in today... I was down 4 lbs....!!!!! I have lost 25.4 lbs in 11 weeks.. woohooo...!!!!! That is all I have to say for now .. I am feeling so proud of myself and so ashamed for doubting myself.. oh well we live and we learn...

Smoking Update

Quit Date is: Thursday, April 17, 2008 at 12:00:00 PM
Time Smoke-Free:43 days, 16 hours, 23 minutes and 35 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked:874
Lifetime Saved:6 days, 16 hours
Money Saved:$154.00

Milestone

I have a couple new things to celebrate... 1. My clothes are starting to hang on me!!!! Even with the draw string pants I can't make them any tighter... I am really trying NOT to buy clothes during this process because I have alot of weight to lose so that means going thru alot of clothes but it comes to a point when you have to.. SO yesterday I went shopping and made a promise to myself that if I was not in a certain size I would NOT buy anything that I would wait and deal with baggy clothes. Well low and behold I tried on that size and they FIT!!!!! So I bought 3 pair of capris ... that will hold me for a bit... I am fortunate that I can wear anything to work and even if they are baggy no big deal. but I needed something for church and going out in general... I am proud of myself and feeling very content with how I am doing... Each day I work at turning my day over to God and following his guidance because I know that he has my best interest at heart. I want this journey to be a life lesson and one that continues for the rest of my life.. I will NOT go back to being heavy and unhealthy ever... I want to be content and happy with myself and live each day to the fullest.. so however long it takes to remove my weight I have to look at it as a positive learning experience and remember that all the other times that I lost weight fast that it always came back.... as all of you know I am not a patient person and I want it NOW .... well I am learning that I have to be patient and trust myself and God and remember that the old Linda (impatient) may have gotten the results at that time but it always came back... I have been trying to figure out why I always put myself in the position of losing then regaining .. yet again another DIET etc... in one of my OA books they gave me the answer... I went on a DIET to punish myself... to me a DIET was punishment and I deserved to be punished because I had FAILED yet again.... I also believe that by going back on a diet that I felt I was in control... and I have found that I have a control issue... hmmm. slow learner I am... LOL.. but by letting go and letting God I am pleased to turn it all over to him.. and it has made this journey so much easier and non demanding.. now dont get me wrong I still have control issues... my mind takes over and I end up having panic attacks.. I start thinking about how long it will take to be at my goal or what can I do to make this go faster but then I stop and pray,blog and or talk to Nicole... these are the new tools that I have incorporated in my life and it is a awesome feeling to know that I have tools to get me thru a bump in the road... I am learning that we all make mistakes and that is ok just get back up and brush yourself off start again.. wow what a wonderul concept wish I could have learned this years ago. So with all that said... I am content with myself and facing each day with a positive and patient outlook ... Watch out all a NEW Linda is coming .. Ready or not here I come...

Feeling Better

I met with Nicole today and I feel much better after going over Step 11 it really helped... after Nicole and I talked over about my panic attack she asked me do you know what step you need to work on? What part of Step 3 ? It is Pride.. She also said that fear is opposite of faith and I need to have more faith in God and trust in his plan... She made me feel better about myself and how I was feeling about my choices on vacation... She also told me I need to let go and quit trying to control things because we ARE NOT in control... God is .... he is control of everything... so I am going to try and work and listening. I have a lot of work to do but I new in this journey and I have to keep learning... I am going to concentrate on my inner voice . I will work on the "Serenity Prayer" .

WOW found this ...

BIGMTGUY A new way to think about losing weight I have to keep telling myself that. It's not. A diet is something you do for a short period of time in order to get a result that doesn't last, and you end up worse off than before. No, no...this is not a diet.It is a way of life. A life change. Something different. I think we are often too hard on ourselves. I think we get disappointed in ourselves. We get frustrated because after a lot of hard work, the scale doesn't move, or the inches don't come off.So we go to what we know best. Food. Then more guilt, more frustration, more disappointment.But I've come to realize something. If this isn't a diet...and it is a way of life, then it's ok. It's ok to have a bad week on the scale, because it's not the end of the world. Next week will come...and then the next. If this is about life change, then I must look at this as a marathon and not a sprint.I didn't get fat overnight. No, I got fat after years and years of neglect and overeating, lack of exercise, being tired, and a miriad of other excuses. Therefore I can't expect to lose this weight over night. And I won't lose it next week and I won't lose it next month.But I will lose it. Why?? Because I'm not on a DIET!!. I'm changing my life. I'm changing my lifestyle. I know that while I may have a bad week on the scale or even a bad month, next year, I will not be the same person I was. I will be healthier. I don't know what that means on the scale, but I don't think it matters either. If this is my way of life, then I will be healthier. I know it.So if I mess up and have a donut or a piece of cake or a slice of pizza now and then, it's ok. I'm not going to drown myself in guilt, nor am I going to drown myself in food. I'm just going to enjoy life. That might mean eating great for a month and then eating not so great for a day or two. But I'm going to enjoy life knowing that I'm making decisions that will make me a happier, healthier person in the future.I'm not going to look in the mirror and get disappointed that I don't look the way I want to now. It will come. But it will take a while. And you know...that's ok. I'm changing. When the changes come and are visible...then great, but it's ok if I don't see them yet. I just know that everyday I'm going to make better decisions.Remember...THIS IS NOT A DIET! This is a life change. A new way to live your life. Enjoy it.

Panic Attack

I made it home today and wow was I in for a rude awakening to the weather.. I am used to it being 80 by 10 or so... it is nice to get back home and back into a routine. I feel back in control.. Last nite when I went to bed I laid there and kept thinking & worrying about how I may have messed up with my eating.. now I know alot of you may roll your eyes and think what the hell is wrong with her after you read the next statement.. but this is what happened.. I laid there and kept going over what I ate what choices I made that were not good and I put myself in a panic attack. My heart my beating so hard I couldnt get my breath and was sweating... I eventually fell asleep... but this really scared me ...... it still scares me because it really shows me how much work I have to do on myself... I think being away from my support system , going to WW meetings and being somewhere that I didnt feel in control of alot of situations.. I feel such a relief being at home and comfortable.. I have to accept that if I gain this week it is from my bad choices and that I will learn from it and go on... that is all I can do... I look at myself as a failure because of some bad choices I made.. I made a promise that I would NOT do it and I did... (make bad choices) I am so Pissed off at myself... because I know better... but I have learned that I just have to make myself realize that I AM NOT PERFECT no one is.... I think that has been my problem all along... I feel that I HAVE to BE PERFECT in my diets / weight loss and if I am not I look at myself as a failure and everyone around me does too... I am still working thru this and will probably go see my therapist this week.... I need to get thru this thought process and as all of you know I have not been successful doing it on my own.. With all of that.. I will not beat myself up but I will brush myself off and continue this week on WW plan.. kick up the exercise this week and hope for the best... with that I will lean on God to guide me and help me to open my heart to what he is leading / guiding me to do... I also meet with Nicole tomorrow and will get back on my steps... I am looking foward to this week and all that it holds.... keep me in your prayers as I struggle with this lastest road block in my journey...

I Have Been Delayed

So I went to the airport all ready to head out went to check in and low and behold my flight had been changed .. it was in the air... I was not notified of change so..... I get one more day here!!!!! Now it does suck I do miss Duane and Nick and my Rudy but what can I do... Air Tran was very nice and got me on next flight in the Business section .. wohoo...

The thing is when I got up this morning I checked the weather and it said chance of severe storms with large hail damaging winds and possible tornado in Minnesota. was not to thrilled on flying when I read that.. then when this happened I thought maybe this happened for a reason.... so with that I am chilling with Jenna one more day and will take off tomorrow very early...

It is sooo hot here that even going to the beach is not a option so we are going to hang out and watch tv... one more day of Sunny Florida

I feel like I am FLOATING

Destin was awesome!!! What beautiful beaches and the ocean is so unbelievable... Jenna and I had two great days on the beach and riding the waves... It still overwhelms me when I see the ocean and ride the waves it brings me back to being a kid just letting go and having FUN!!! No inhibitions.. it also gave me time to meditate and thank God for all the things I have in my life.. my husband who gives me so much love and support and spoils me rotten... thanks honey for this trip.. I know it is a memory that neither Jenna or I will forget.. Jenna what a great daughter and really a awesome young woman I am always in awe of her independence and surety in herself... I am so proud of her and what she stands for in her personal life and in her thoughts of the world.. she is going to go far in whatever she chooses or whatever God has planned for her. Nick ... he is such a great young man and he too makes me so proud.. Duane and I have been blessed with two great kids... But as we all know all good things must come to a end... I will be heading back tomorrow ... but I am excited to see Duane, Nick and Rudy... Sorry Floyd...

I decided not to freak out about counting points while we were gone it was making me crazy.. I will get back on track on Monday and all will be good... I really have not made bad choices but when your at at a authentic canjuan restaraunt you have to get Jambalaya .. and cat fish... Yummy!!!! Yesterday I had shrimp... gotta have shrimp here... it was delciious.. and Jen and I shared key lime pie.. hmmmm.. good.. but with those choices the other times I have been aware and that is all I can do... I do have to say that riding those waves yesterday and today had to burn some calories.. that will kick some serious booty.. well gotta do some laundry so till next time....

Uneasy

Today I am feeling a bit uneasy... you know that feeling down in your gut.. a nervous feeling.. I think I am feeling that I am not following my points as I should... It is so hard when you are on vacation.. not because of eating bad things but trying to calculate what you eat.. I would say that 75 % of the time that I have been away from home I have stayed within my points... so I am going to try and raise that percentage the rest of the time I am here... when in doubt salad and grilled chicken... as I said before I will be happy if I stay at weight when I left..I have walked 3 times while here and then the extra walking around helps... I feel so obsessed today and I hate it.. I know it is because I feel out of control.. and I really HATE that... I do not want to go down that road so I am really going to work at getting rid of those thoughts .... I know that I am not perfect and each day is a new day. I know that I will never have this experience again to spend with Jenna and I am going to be grateful for it.

We are off to Destin for the next 2 days.. I can not wait.... maybe a change in scenery will help... for now I am going to take a deep breath and clear my head... and be grateful for what God has given me and what he has in store for me today and today only... I have to remember "One Day at a Time" till next time...

It's A BOY!!!

Rachel had her baby tonite at 7:01, a boy, 8lb14oz and 21.5 inches long... went in hospital at 3:30 had him at 7:01 called me at 7:52.. wow ... sounded great and baby was doing great.. they had not named him yet.. waiting for details.. Way to go Tim and Rachel.. welcome baby Carlson... can't wait to meet you...

New Baby Coming!!

Well, got a call about Rachel tonite and she was heading to the hospital... I hope all goes well and fast for her she has had a rough few weeks... Wow, when I get home I will have a new little one to spoil!!!! I cant wait as all of you know how much I love babies... I just never have gotten them out of my system.. I have always said and asked how can anyone doubt that their is a God when they see the miracle of a new baby. It truly puts me in awe each time. Well, I will update as soon as I get the word... ahhh ... just imagine what I will be like when I am going to be a grama.. I cant imagine... well I am sure that will be a few years away but it doesnt hurt to wonder. Well off to figure out dinner and throw some laundry .... just beach wear and towels... another rough day at the beach.. it was beautiful....

Just Beaching It

Today Jenna and I spent 5 hours on the beach and thoroghly enjoyed every minute of it... we are bronzed and ready to head back tomorrow.... it was a high of 88 today and supposed to be that way all week... going to make talapia for dinner tonite.

Went walking this morning for another half hour.. went earlier to beat the heat.. sorry fellow Minnesotans...

Talked with Rachel today seemed to be feeling a bit better.. except as she says " I am sooo DONE!!!" she goes to the dr tomorrow so hopefully she will get some good news... My date that I guessed for the birth is the 23rd... I believe Rachel picked like last week some time.. LOL... will keep all updated..

I am missing the little ones at daycare.... but am enjoying the time off... I have to say I forgot how much I love the beach and ocean... it is so amazing to look out and see that much water.. it is mind boggling .. i cant imagine what a little child thinks the first time they see the ocean.. it has to really be so unbelievable to them.. I actually thought of Ellie and what she would think... she is conquering her fear of water but I have a feeling if she saw the ocean it would put her right back to " I am NOT going in that WATER!!!" I can just hear her now... well gonna chill out before dinner.. till next tim..

I AM DOWN 10 %

I went in to weigh before we took off for Florida on Saturday morning... I was down 2.6 lbs and made it to my first goal ... 10 % down !!! I have lost 21.4 lbs in 10 weeks... I am so glad I made my first goal before I left it will inspire me to stay on track... I did well driving down here brought along all my WW info and checked meals / snacks for points... I will be satisfied if I stay at my weight while I am here a bonus will be if I lose ... but I am not going to dwell on it..

We had a great trip after 20 hours on the road we arrived , the weather driving was good a few rain showers in Mississippi. We made it here about 4:30 and visited a bit before unloading Jenna's stuff.. Julie and Cindy have made Jenna feel so welcome. They have a great place and I know Jenna is going to have a blast here with them.. my only fear is she won't want to come home.. I can't blame her it is gorgeous here.

This morning I got up and took a walk for 30 minutes and let me tell you it was warm already at 9:00 ... We are chilling out today getting some errands ran and Jenna is ironing her work clothes and I am WATCHING!!!!! We are going to grill some talapia tonite and visit with Julie and Cindy and enjoy a realaxing evening.. Tomorrow we are heading to the beach... I can't wait I love the ocean and just relaxing on the beach .

I am thinking alot about Rachel and how she is doing she has had a rough week. She had the flu and it is really kicking her butt. I am waiting to here from her as I type she went to dr to get some blood work done since she has not been able to keep anything down or in.. I talked with her this afternoon and her exact words were I AM DONE!! I feel so bad being gone and her feeling so bad but when we decided on what was the best time for me to go we had NO idea she would be dealing with the flu... I feel good knowing Tim is there to help out if she isnt up to par.. I am keeping her in my thoughts and prayers and I ask all of you to do the same... I will keep you all updated...

Till next time.... Remember "One Day at a Time"

Learning

I made my first ammends this week and it was more intense than I thought... I picked this person first because I thought it wouldn't be that hard.. but it was.. I did not back down and stated my apologies and then listened to the remarks / comments that came. Most were neutral but there was some negative... it hurt but I didnt react like I normally would have... defensively.. making ammends is about cleaning my side of the street.. if the people that I make ammends with have issues with me or in general that is NOT my problem... I am in control of myself and God is leading me... whatever issues these people have with me or in general I can NOT control and I can NOT change them... I have to be in control of myself.. I have to pray for guidance and listen quietly for what God has in store for me.. I am not going to be someone or something that I am not for anyone any longer... this is going to be hard because I always want to please those I love and do for them what is best (or what they feel is best) but life is too short to pretend to be someone or do things that someone wants of you... some who read this may think that I am being selfish but I am not I am trying to do what is best for me at this time in my life.. and in the future it will show thru... I have to make some important decisions when I get back from Florida that may cause some turmoil but I will wait and really pray about it and wait for the answer... God is so awesome and I know that he is guiding me right now... I just need to be still and listen and his words will come... keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I work thru this step..

Heading to Florida

Well I will be on the road to Florida with Jenna... we will leaving on Saturday early... it is going to be fun to have some bonding time. I cant wait to lay on the beach and just enjoy the sun.. I will still try and blog while I am there.. but not for the first few days... I will be thinking about all that dont have sunshine ..... talk with you soon..

Share your Thoughts

I have always lost weight on the outside and have not been successful in keeping it off... this time something came to mind I am losing my weight from the inside out.... do you think this may be the answer?? I hope so.....

Thanks Duane

Duane has decided to teach himself to cook.. he decided on a recipe and made it on Sunday. now I have to say he was brave in the recipe he choose.. Stuffed Flank Steak... so we went to the store and got all the ingredients and on Sunday he put on a apron ( my insisting) and went at it... he used ingredients that I have NEVER used in cooking.... fresh garlic, spinach , roasted peppers and more... He did great... it was sooo good... Nick at about 20 oz of the steak... I ate my portion and Duane ate his portion.. He choose boiled potatoes and green beans for sides.. It was a really great meal... I am so proud of him and he is ready to tackle another recipe.. I think he is going to try a recipe with shrimp and pasta... we both want to get more fish in our diet..

On Monday we made Talapia together for the first time Cajuan style we topped the fish with Caus Caus ( coos coos ) it was so yummy and it took a total of 10 minutes to make the whole meal now that is FAST FOOD that is good for you....

Duane is good at getting me to step out of the box and try new things and I am and it has been fun and let me tell you Nick loves it.... so if anyone has new recipes to share with me send them our way.... until next time ... Happy Cooking!!!!

Still Learning

Each day I learn more and more about myself thru the 12 Steps.. some positive and alot negative:I think I have known some things all along but am now facing them. It is hard to face myself and my defects but I am learning from my mistakes. It is hard to recognize that I have caused myself alot of pain and hardship along with hurting my family.. I recognize that I have always sabotaged myself in my work. I recognize that I am a quitter and I told Duane that I have used his success in a way of allowing myself to quit... I also see that alot of times I have taken jobs to please others and that in turn lends it self to me quitting because my heart and soul were not in it... I have always fought from the beginning my career choice... I love children I am good with children it is my passion.. but from the beginning people tried to steer me away because I wouldnt make any money... well guess what... this is what God blessed me with I am wired to work with kids and I will not apologize for it.. I recognize that I have been blessed to have a succesful husband that gave me the opportunity to stay home be a wife and mom .. that is what I wanted to do and be and damn it I am and was good at it and I will not back down from that. The best thing I did was raise two awesome kids... and I truly believe that me staying at home was the key to what they have grown to be... there are people in my life that I know I have not lived up to their expectations and I accept that but now I am asking those people to accept me for who I am.... I will never make BIG money, but I will give you all that I have with what I am blessed with... Not all of us can be a successful working woman not all of us want that.. I have never wanted to be a working woman.. I want to contribute financially but I also will not compromise my family for that... I am learning to stand up for myself and to accept that I will not be able to please everyone but I have to be happy with myself and when I am happy with myself then it will spread to everyone around me... I am growing stronger each day and I hope everyone can see the change that has come over me...

To All That I May Have Hurt with My Words

If I could turn back time If I could find a way I'd take back those words that have hurt you And you'd stay I don't know why I did the things I did I don't know why I said the things I said Pride's like a knife, it can cut deep inside Words are like weapons, they wound sometimes I didn't really mean to hurt you I didn't wanna see you go I know I made you cry If I could turn back time If I could find a way I'd take back those words that have hurt you And you'd stay If I could reach the stars I'd give them all to youT hen you'd love me, love me Like you used to do If I could turn back time

Jewel Lyrics

This song really sums up alot of what I am feeling during my Weight Loss Journey... I am becoming a strong woman that will beat this weight demon that I have fought all my life.. I am so grateful that I have found Weight Watchers and OverEaters Anonomys ... This is my athem...

I’m gonna love myself More than anyone else Believe in me Even if someone can’t see The stronger woman in me
I’m gonna be my own best friend Stick with me till the end Won’t lose myself again Never, no Cause there’s a stronger woman A stronger woman in me

I’ve lived on hope Like a child Walking that mile Faking that smile All the while Wishing my heart had wings Well from now on I’m gonna be The kind of woman I want my daughter to be,
I’m gonna love myself More than anyone else Believe in me Even if someone can’t see A stronger woman in me I’m gonna be my own best friend, Stick with me till the end Won’t lose myself again Never, no Cause there’s a stronger woman, Stronger woman

Reflection

Prayer is the key that opens the door to all that is good in life.~ Anonymous


I have found that this is so true and am so thankful for prayer in my life..

Struggling

I have to make ammends to family, friends and past co-workers for harm that I have caused them during my life.. doing the 12 Steps I have come to realize that I have contributed alot to my inability to stay at a job.. at all of my jobs I have always become in a conflict with a employee or employees and blamed them for things... after looking at my past and my inventory of defects I am ready to admit that I was a BIG part of the problem.. I have caused conflict by gossiping saying things about the person or persons that would make them look bad but make me look better. I have hurt alot of people along with myself but participating in the sabotage of people. I have ended/quit good jobs because of my insecurties. So I have to make restitution to those at a past job. It really is weighing heavy on my heart and I have been praying for the right words. I am unsure if they will be willing to talk with me but I have to give it a try. I have to clean my side of the street and feel free of all the turmoil that it has caused. With the other people I have to make ammends I dont feel this stress because I know they are my family and close friends and will accept my apology for my behavior. So I will continue to pray and meditate and wait for God to give me the words and wisdom to put a end to a open wound. For anyone out there that reads this if I have ever harmed you in the past because of my insecurities and defects I truly apologize and ask that you forgive me. There have been times in my life that food and depression have made me do and say things that I am not proud of. I now am working on making myself a better person and to be aware of others and their feelings... Once again, I am sorry for in past pain I have caused.

Mind Change

So the other day Duane and I was talking about something that we had in our fridge that we had to throw out because it was going bad... it was something that I really like.. I was like God I hate throwing this out and he said something like yea but it is went bad. So I threw it out... as I was throwing it out I said " you know if I wasnt on Weight Watchers I would have at that all " ... the importance of this story is before 1. I would have really ate it ALL!!!! 2. Before I would have said " if I wasn't on a DIET I would have ate that" BUT this time I said Weight Watchers.. NOT DIET !!!! for me that is a turning point.. Why??? Because I am not looking at this as a DIET!!!! That is a BIG step for me.... YAHOOOO !!!!!!!!

Exercise

Last nite I walked on treadmill and did my cardio glide for 45 minutes which I have been doing for a bit... the difference was the speed I got up to.. I was really booking and sweating... I know that it is because of the weight I have lost that allows me to go faster... I forget how much I really to love working out when I am at a lower weight and in good shape... I am so excited to get back into some classes that I really loved when I was on my last weight loss jag... working out makes me feel good. gives me energy and relieves stress... our bodies were designed to keep moving if you dont use it you will lose it as they say and I dont want to lose it !!!! So everyone get up and move you will love all the benefits that it has to offer.. Well gotta go have a great day...

Smoke Update

Smoke Free for 19 Days!!!

Smoke Update

Time Smoke-Free: 19 days, 7 hours, 14 minutes and 48 seconds


Is this still yourMed Plan?
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 386
Lifetime Saved: 2 days, 22 hours
Money Saved: $66.50

Yahoo Moments

The sun is shining... yahooo!!!! My pants are baggy... Yahooo!!! It is Jenna's 21st birthday !!!! WOW!!! Did I mention my pants are really BAGGY !!!!!! I walked 2 times today!!!!! Duane helped me cook dinner tonite!!!!! WOHOO!!! I am happy happy with everything !!!! I really feel that I have raised 2 great kids!!!! Duane is a awesome hubby!!!! All in All I am content with all.......

The story of the Hole in the Street

A woman walks down the street and falls in a hole. The next day she walked down the same street and fell in a hole. The 3rd day she walked down the street and fell into the hole. The 4th day she went down the same street and walked around the hole but fell in and climbed out. The 5th day she walked down a NEW street and found a new way to get to where she was going...

This is the story of my weight loss... by losing and regaining... finally I have found the right street with WW.

Watch yourself on your journey on losing weight that hole can be deep but remember you can always climb back out...

We ALL Struggle

I am down this week!!!! 3 lbs... wohoo!!!! I made a special effort to change up my exercise and I did and it paid off... I did two days of Leslie Sansone "Walk Away the Pounds" with toning excercise... it is a 3 mile Walk .. it really kicked my ass but it also made a difference.. I am hoping that I will be at 10% down next week... so I am going to kick my exercise in the butt again... Great WW meeting this week... met a elderly woman (76) and we really hit it off.. talked alot about our stuggles.. guess what we have the SAME ones.. you see it does not matter if you are 26, 36.46 or 76 when you struggle with your weight we have the same weaknesses... we are like in so many ways and that is why WW is so succesful because we all can relate to each other.. We are not alone and that is what keeps me coming back.. I am there for support and there to make new friends and give them support... So when she left she came and thanked me for my enthusiasm and interest in her... She said I pumped her up!!! That made me feel great....

I am so Excited

I am soooo excited.... Duane is committing to a healthy lifestyle.. he is on board and is going to participate in planning our meals... if he says he is going to do something he will do it.... I will have my own private personal trainer.. he will research and find foods that are good and healthy for us.. I am soo hyped.. I have been waiting for this forever.. I now know that I will be succesful on my journey and that I have my prayers answered... I know that God has his hand in this and I am so grateful for my faith and our Father.. I feel more blessed than I ever have in a long time.. I also have a friend (she is a friend by being my waitress at Applebees) that is going to join WW this week and start going to meetings the same time.. she also wants to walk on weekends.. so I have more support in my journey .. God has given me 2 great blessings today I am feeling so grateful.... I am on top of the world.. With this I give thanks for my blessings today..

OA quote

Letting go of addiction is about control, recovery is about letting go. If addiction is about denial, recovery is about accepting what is. As we spend time in the program, we learn something unexpected and amazing; Life is so full of twists and turns; it's easier to follow along than to try to straighten them out. It's easier to have fewer expectations because, after all, we have no control over the future or the present. Can I practice letting go? God, help me to be open, flexible, and accepting in my recovery.