Struggling

I have to make ammends to family, friends and past co-workers for harm that I have caused them during my life.. doing the 12 Steps I have come to realize that I have contributed alot to my inability to stay at a job.. at all of my jobs I have always become in a conflict with a employee or employees and blamed them for things... after looking at my past and my inventory of defects I am ready to admit that I was a BIG part of the problem.. I have caused conflict by gossiping saying things about the person or persons that would make them look bad but make me look better. I have hurt alot of people along with myself but participating in the sabotage of people. I have ended/quit good jobs because of my insecurties. So I have to make restitution to those at a past job. It really is weighing heavy on my heart and I have been praying for the right words. I am unsure if they will be willing to talk with me but I have to give it a try. I have to clean my side of the street and feel free of all the turmoil that it has caused. With the other people I have to make ammends I dont feel this stress because I know they are my family and close friends and will accept my apology for my behavior. So I will continue to pray and meditate and wait for God to give me the words and wisdom to put a end to a open wound. For anyone out there that reads this if I have ever harmed you in the past because of my insecurities and defects I truly apologize and ask that you forgive me. There have been times in my life that food and depression have made me do and say things that I am not proud of. I now am working on making myself a better person and to be aware of others and their feelings... Once again, I am sorry for in past pain I have caused.