I am having a REAL Hard Time....

I am really having a difficult time having Jenna so far away because she is having some potential life changing things going on in her life right now.. the phone is great and we talk at least once a day (lately maybe once) but it isnt the same. I want to be able to go visit her soon but I know it is not possible ... (financially) without sharing anything about what is going on with her it is a time where a daughter and mom need to close to each other just to be able to have those mom daughter talks all nite long if we need to.... to be able to give her a big hug to share in these special moments... I know this is going to be a challenge because Jen and I are so close she literally shares everything with me. I feel so lucky to have this relationship with her and it really is tearing me apart being 2000 miles from her... I am going to pray and hope that I can find a way to go see her before she comes back... I know that it is important to her as much as for me for her to see her mama.. so my challenge is going to be to convince Duane that I should go visit her... dads are different they don't understand that mom/daughter bond.. plus he is going to see her the end of July... well all I can do is have faith that I will be able to go see her.. I dont know if I could stand the drive again plus the time on the road is alot.. driving alone is scary and of course the price of gas is ridiculous.. but I have to say if she if she comes out and asks me to come I will do whatever to get there... so we will have to wait and see.. Most of all I want to say how much joy she brings to me...... I am so proud of her....