Facing Myself

The 4th Step is to look at Resentment : which i did and after going over the list of people and what I resented them for I found out some very interesting things about myself: 1. I have fear and to I am Selfish: now going thru this process I kept telling Nicole I am not selfish... but after going thru each statement it was overwhelming... that is hard to face.. i never saw myself as a selfish person.. i am still sorting thru it and have decided to let go of all the resentments in my past and present and give them to God... I am turning them over to him.. I am going to learn to face challenges and problems in a different way .. I have to remember that He is in charge and he knows best.. i can not let these bitter , angry, hurt and fearful feelings bog me down.. that was then this is now...I know this will take alot of work and is easier said than done when someone says " Let go and let God" but that is my new way and I trust in the 12 Steps and the program and will let all it go... I dont know if I want/need to do something symbolic like : burn the pages that I wrote the list on: put the name s of each person on my list and put in a balloon and set sail to the Heavens above. Literally give it to God.... I will let you know what I do... Till next time...